Fic: Live 'Til You Die (Pros, B/D)

[przed]

In spite of being generally swamped at both work and home, I've somehow finished the first story for my hc_bingo card.

Live 'Til You Die (3041 words)
Fandom: The Professionals
Pairing: William Bodie/Ray Doyle
Summary: When they're trapped in an impossible situation, Doyle does what he thinks he has to.
Notes: Written for the hc_bingo challenge, for the sacrifice square. Huge thanks to callistosh65 and m. butterfly for incredibly helpful betas, and moonlightmead for double-checking that the ending wasn't crap.

Comments

[gilda-elise.livejournal.com]

I'm on vacation and so have no time to read this right now, but I've saved it to my desktop. I'll be read this evening when I'm in for the day. Can't wait!

[przed.livejournal.com]

I know all about having no time. I've had the story written for a few days now, but didn't have time to post. I do hope you enjoy it.

[moonlightmead.livejournal.com]

Oh, I am glad you have posted it!

Gripping the front of Bodie's jacket, he pulled him close and kissed him, hard and fierce, a kiss that recalled all the others they'd shared, and all the ones they'd never have now. Then before he could change his mind, he ran out from behind the boxes.
This frightened the wits out of me when I read it. Not because I won't read deathfic - I certainly will, and I am happy to meet it unexpectedly. Just the 'Oh no, he's not going to make it' fear. (also the title of the document you sent me was different, and even more stark than the final one!)

He chased the voice
I love this idea of chasing the voice back to Bodie.

And no, the ending is definitely not crap!

[przed.livejournal.com]

Yay for having the time to post!

Sorry to give you a scare. I'll always warn for deathfic. (I've only ever written one death story, and that one surprised even me. But I've written rather a lot of "Oh no, he's dead! Wait, no he isn't!" stories.)

I'm still relieved the ending isn't crap. *g*

[moonlightmead.livejournal.com]

Oh, don't apologise: I like it when writing grips me like that. There are one or two scenes and stories that can reliably have me in tears - Doyle's breakdown in Heat-Trace, and the near-miss of the letters in Absolution (by Angelfish, in Never Far Apart 2) are great examples - and I read them as avidly as I do the happy ones. More so, sometimes.

I can think of a few "he's dead! He isn't dead!" stories of yours, yes!

[przed.livejournal.com]

I'm glad I'm not the only one who likes intense stories. I used to use warnings to find all the angst and deathfic to read first. (Ya know, I don't think I've read Absolution yet. NFA 2 came out when my daughter was a toddler so there wasn't a lot of reading going on then. Shall have to rectify that!)

I've even written a TT "he's dead!he's not dead!" story. That's when I realized it was definitely a thing of mine. *g* (I know it's a bit of a cheat--you get the big emotional breakdown moment, but then get to pull off a happy ending--but I don't care.)

[moonlightmead.livejournal.com]

I used to use warnings to find all the angst and deathfic to read first.
I did that too! I was particularly grateful for the Hatstand storylists, which enabled me to home in on a variety of story types I liked. Basically, if comms routinely want warnings for it, it's probably one of my favourite genres.

Oh wow, you haven't read Absolution? It is absolutely on my top ten of Pros fic that I have ever ever read. It nails the eighties and nineties in the UK and brought it all back to me quite overpoweringly. And if you like angst, well, my gods, this is the story for you. I hadn't realised you hadn't read it. Pretend I never said anything about the plot and yes, go and read it!

It's funny when we realise 'things' of ours that we didn't know about before, after writing them repeatedly. I wouldn't have thought I had written enough to find any, but, oh dear, there they are!

[przed.livejournal.com]

Yay for another person using the warnings as recs! (I frequently get odd looks from my friends when I tell them I do that. But they mostly avoid deathfic like the plague, so I suppose it's understandable.)

Okay, Absolution is going to be the next thing I read. I love all of Angelfish's other stories past reason. I don't know how I didn't jump into that as soon as I got it, except that like I said, I was chasing a toddler around at the time, and since I've moved almost all of my fic reading to my ereader.

It's definitely interesting when you start noticing patterns in your own writing. I was definitely noticing trends when I was sticking all my fic up on AO3 a few years back. Along with an alarming lack of sex in my early slash stories. Back when I thought I was just writing slash as a favour to an editor friend. ;-)